Gem and John forever
I lost my husband of one week to cancer on 24.06.12 after he was only diagnosed on 3rd January. He died aged 33. It all happened so quickly and the original cancer spread so quickly that what finally killed him was the fact the cancer went to his brain and he kept having seizures. The last one which we couldnot bring him round from. We were due to get married on 20th July this year bu with an uncertain prognosis we brought the wedding forward to 16th June and we finally after six delightful years together became man and wife. Just exactly one week after we had made our vows he was dead in my arms. I still cant believe he is gone, I miss him so much. I feel empty and numb and like my whole word has been torn into tiny little pieces. we had so many plans for the future as we travelled the world together. I dont seem to be able to cope at all with what this world has dealt me and am just desperate to feel a little better day by day, but it seems to be going the other way. I talk to him all the time but it just doesnt give me the comfort it did in the immediate days after his death. I think it is such a cruel disease and he was such a wonderful loving person. We fought all year and did everything we could to try and beat this wretched disease but it in the end it got the better of both of us. I am so alone and I just want to feel him by my side again.