special lonely days
To everyone here,I just want to say thanks for all the support for the grief we go through.It doesn't matter what caused it,just that we have to learn day by day how to deal with it.The special days are the hardest:birthdays,holidays, wedding anniversaries,death anniversaries, and other special days.Even the regular days can be hard.I saw a commercial where the couple was celebrating their time after the kids were grown and had taken a vacation.That made me cry.My love didn't make my 62nd birthday when we were going to do just that.(he has been gone 27 months)There WILL ALWAYS be triggers.There WILL ALWAYS be bad days.The good part is that there WILL BE good days more often as time goes on.We WILL ALWAYS remember our loved ones.They are in our hearts forever. The stronger the bond the more it hurts.I believe in the statement,"It's better to have loved and lost than to have never have loved at all."Love is the greatest and best thing on this earth.I feel so blessed to have had the love and friendship of a good man for 33 yrs.I miss him terribly still. I still have those split seconds when I expect to see him when I wake up or go to bed.It's still hard to watch a TV show or movie he loved to watch.I still have days when I would rather stay in bed and sleep to keep the sadness away.I still have days when I get depressed and don't even want to get dressed. The good part is that they are becoming less over time.Writing on this site,"talking" to others who know how I feel helps.I hope I can help others through the rough days the way others helped me.It is hard to go on when half of you is gone.One thing that helps me is that I have faith I will see him again. I have this feeling in my heart that it will be even better because there will be no problems or worries.GOD bless you all. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers.