I don't know where or how to begin. Well 5 years ago my wife left me and our 3 boys. She came in and out of their lives a little. Well in the process of custody issues and trying win custody of my boys me and long time friend got involved. She was great, helped me thru all the custody and hard times and we were so in love. She became a great step-mom which I never asked her do. After couple years she wanted one of her own. So 2 years ago our little son was born. I felt so complete as a family. It was hard at times with 4 boys but we were so in love. But next thing you know day after day became the same. We rarely had a babysitter and well didn't get do much. Well she started becoming very unhappy saying she needed more out of life and at times after 4 years would say I didn't have all theses kids you did. We still would have night outs and time to ourselves but for most part our lives were taking care and running a house of 4 boys. Well it got to point I had let her go. She said she needed more out of life. Well I,ve let her go and thought she would of missed me and my boys. She was such good step-mom. Well she hasn't looked back. She says she gonna live the life she deserves and doesn't want come back to us. I see our baby every other day. But for 5 weeks now I haven't seen her, she wants nothing do with me and tells me move on. We used be so in love you had see it to understand. Just few months ago she said she was unhappy but didn't know how to live without me. So now im confused how a love and someone who couldn't go to sleep without me now doesn't want even see me. She says its cause it makes her sad and confused, I say that's crap. She went from being here as a family to us for 4 years to nothing. Im so hurt, confused, and in such pain. yes I know man up and I have but im still human and I just don't understand any of it. so she doesn't want this life of raising all my kids, I understand some, but to point of no contact and she is fine moving on really hurts. I miss her so much and I think my boys do too. But she just seems fine these past 4 to 5 weeks. I haven't seen her in weeks and its getting better but still confused, feel betrayed. She used really love me and my boys.