by Catherine K
I am still crying over the loss of my precious daughter, Stephanie who was suffering for so long with bipolar disorder. I cannot seem to get past the unfairness of it when she was such a good, brave person and tried so hard to get through the difficulties she had with the illness. I think I have been traumatized by first her death and then finding her father dead two weeks later after fighting cancer for two years. I think they were both so affected by the others' illnesses. It is really hard to bear after having lost my dear son, Stephen,in 1997, 26 years old who was so sweet and funny. His sisters adored him. Who would ever dream I could lose two of my precious children out of three and then my ex-husband, their Dad so shortly after. I did not even have him to commiserate with over the loss of Stephanie.
I feel as though this terrible pain is never going to end and I am always trying to find ways to make it easier but I am depressed and crying constantly. I go through her clothes and pictures but all I want is to have her back which I know is not realistic.
Thank you to the response to my first message. I appreciate your help but I know it is going to take a long time for this feeling to go away, if ever.
I know I need a lot of help this time. Can anyone else give me some comfort? I do realize other people are suffering pain too and I feel so sorry for them.
God bless you all.