by Catherine K

I am having a really bad day today. I am going through your pictures and possessions and crying a lot. You were such a lovely brave person, beautiful inside and out but Bipolar disorder took your life on November 15th 2011. I will always admire you because you fought it from the time you graduated from college. I know you were exhaused by the toll it was taking but oh how I wish I could have done more to help you. The regrets are terrible but I did my best. I try to think about the fun times we had together but life dealt us some blows. Your brother Stephen dying in 1997 at the age of 26 and then your Dad a cruel two weeks after you. I keep going over in my mind the terrible time we had arranging two wakes and funerals right after each other.
I have a lovely card you made for me in the hospital last year which says " Dear Mom, don't worry about me. Please be happy, Love Steph. I read it every day to remind me that is what you wanted for me.
We will all meet again in Heaven one day. There is just one of you left with me now and we try to support each other. You are with Stephen and Dad now and I try to comfort myself with that.C hrissy is taking care of your dog, Casper who you loved so much.
I did not realize how precious you were to me until after I lost you. Love forever, Mom

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Apr 04, 2012
May god heal your broken heart
by: Cathy

HI, this is Brandons mom,i really cannot imagine what you are going through, how terrible to lose your three loved ones, only god can heal you no one else can,i know what i am going through losing my angel , why does god do this i dont know. the days are a little bit ok with all the work but nights are really the worst. May god gives you courage , i did not know about this site but after losing my son i came across it an i realized that there a lot like me some even worse . God heal us all.

Apr 03, 2012
by: Alex

Dear Catherine,

I lost someone precious to me the past weekend and felt some of the loss you feel.

I relate to all you have written, and wanted to let you know that I admire your strength in this most difficult time.

Apr 03, 2012
I am so Sorry
by: carol,seans mom

Hello. I to lost my son,24 years old on November 15,2011. I feel your pain. My son had a blood clot develop while he slept, landing on his heart eventually causing loss of oxygen to his brain. What a complete nightmare and I really only thought this stuff happened in movies. Never imagined a day like this. I took for granted that I was the type of mom that bad things would not happen to my children. Sean was my oldest child and only son. He was a young man who could push the limits but had a sweet sweet heart. Life is completely different. I don't know how we get threw this. I can not imagine planning two funerals at the same time. I am so sorry and my heart goes to you. Take one day at a time,be good to yourself and be patient. I stay pretty much to myself now and just try to be there for Seans sisters,my beautiful girls. They struggle also. It is a very trying time for all of us and I can only say one moment at a time. There really is no other option. Peace to you.

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