by Catherine K

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I lost you forever on November 15th 2011 and it has been terrible without you. I have been feeling slightly better lately thanks to an antidepressant but it hit me again today that I will not be seeing you again or hearing your voice until we meet again in Heaven. I know you, our dear Stephen and Dad who died just two weeks after you are all together now and holding hands.
I have one child left now and she loved you too and misses you so much. She has lost a brother and a sister now and she was the baby of the family so she has to be really strong. The pain is terrible for us both.
In a couple of weeks we will have to go and pick out headstones for you and Dad and I know that will be so hard. I remember doing it for Stephen in 1997 and I never dreamed I would lose another child.
You were always so courageous and I honor you for that because of all you went through with your illness.
I look at your pictures every day and cannot believe how beautiful and happy you were but underneath was this awful depression. Now I know just how you felt because I have been feeling the same thing.
I wish time could turn back and I could change everything and make it all good for you.
Sleep peacefully, my precious girl. I will love you always.

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May 01, 2012
by: mommys boy

hi my name is rose and i lost my son stephen on november 15 2011 in a car accident on the way to work and im so sick i feel like this life is a big joke and i just want my son back but i no im not going to see him no more and its so so sad he was every thing to me and his kids he was so funny and handsome why why why did this happen i just dont get it do you

Apr 24, 2012
November 15,2011
by: carol,seans mom

I know this date all to well. I lost my 24 year old son Sean on November 15,2011. He did not wake up for work that evening. He was working an overnight shift and had an appointment the next morning to be tested for class placements starting January 12,2012. Our lives have changed forever. They talked of a blood clot all day in the hospital and how he suffered three heart attacks which caused lack of oxygen to his brain. Honestly, I still can't believe this is my life now. He was the oldest of three and my only son. Life is dark,painful and sad. My doctor wants to put me on antidepressants which I was against. Now I think I may have to. I have gone deeper into depression. It is so hard to watch the world continue and I am traumatized. I use to love my life and now I struggle to be there for my girls. I wish all of us peace some day. We deserve at least that. I am so sorry for all your loss.

Apr 23, 2012
Stephanie and Brandon
by: Catherine K

Hi Cathy, Thank you for your kind words. We both know how it feels to lose someone we really love. I miss Stephanie so much and all the good times we had. I try to focus on those and not the struggles she had with her illness.
She and Brandon are safe in Heaven now and I really believe we will be together with our loved ones again when the time comes.
He is looking down on you and does not want you to suffer I am sure.
Stephanie made this simple little card for me the last time she was in the hospital. It reads " Mom, dont worry about me. Please be happy. Love you Steph". That card is such a comfort to me and I read it every day.
I will be thinking about you. Catherine

Apr 23, 2012
our angels gone forever
by: Cathy

Hi Catherine, this is angel Brandon's mom and i am one month ahead of you in my grief, my son left me on 18th October 2011. She is so sweet and has an angelic smile, why does god take the sweet ones first, i am also trying my best to move on but its like gone with the wind. Life is a mystery and i am not sure if i will ever understand it. the terrible part is not hearing their voice, not seeing them. I feel that if cannot see him it is ok but if i could just hear his voice once in a while i would be able to bear the pain of losing. Take care and god bless you and your daughter.

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