It is exactly 6 months since you took your own life on November 15th 2011. The pain is still unbearable and I am always looking for photos of you and framing them so that I have some record of your lovely face.
I am still haunted by the events of that day. I had to fly up to NJ from Florida the following day and be with your sister who found you and was brokenhearted. Unbelievably, your Dad passed away from cancer two weeks later. He was doing ok but I think the loss of you was too much for him to bear.
So, we had two wakes and two funerals so close after each other. All your friends and relatives could not believe thay would be at the funeral home again so soon.
I miss you both so much and it will take a long time for it to feel much better. I have a few easier days now but there is a big void in my life. You called me in Florida every day and I still wake up waiting for that phone call and then I remember. You are with Dad and Stephen, your brother who loved you so much and left us in 1997.
I love you too, beautiful girl and will always miss your smile and the way we used to laugh together when you were well. Bipolar disorder is such a cruel illnes. It robbed you of your life but you battled it so hard.
I will see you again someday Steph. Love always, Mom