In the late summer (aug) of 98 I lost my grandmother who lived within 2 miles from my house, it was an everyday thing to ride my bike over and see my grandparents. Two and a half weeks later i lost my uncle to cancer needless to say at this point the losses were starting to drag on my mind and heart.
3 day later my grandfather (husband of earlier loss) passed away. I then went to two funerals in 3 days. I was in college at that time and trying to come to terms with all this loss and was going to partys and raising hell to cope.
In the next month we lost two friends of the family which i had known quite well and I am pretty sure I went into I don't care mode and started to really amp up the drinking.
4 day before thanksgiving my last grandparent (grandmother) had a stroke and passed away. At that point I can say I was completely in a fog of pain and loss. I wanted to end my life because i just wasn't coping with that much loss in such a short time. thankfully I had good friends and myself because in the end i put my life and myself first.
to make the year complete our dog was hit by a car and killed on christmas day.
This was the worst 5 months of my life and as we all do we go on because thats what we need to do but I think I still have not recovered from it.
I may not have recovered from it till this day but I can say I have fought for my life and my happiness. And in the end we lose people we love and we can grieve for those people but at some point you have to let go because none of the people we have lost would want us to live in pain. As much as it hurts life really does goe on.