Still Have to Remind Myself..... Everyday
(New York )
My older brother died in a car accident a little over a year ago on December 31, 2012. He was a rear seat passenger and his two friends that were in the front seat walked away without any injuries. He was 21 years old. Ever single day I miss him so much. My life has changed dramatically without him. He was my only sibling. People say that is gets easier after the first year because you have experienced all of the first. I don't believe it yet. Everyday is still a struggle. It is hard waking up one morning with your world completely changed. I went from having an older brother that would always protect me, take the heat from our parents, and always be there to offer advice to having to figure out how to navigate life without him. It's extremely difficult to try to deal with your grief, but continue to live your life. My brother was a star baseball player, the captain of his college team. He was someone that people noticed and wanted to be friends with. I always had the "Oh, you are Max's sister!" conversations. I loved my big brother so much. I always admired him. He was a someone that was friends with everyone because he was just such a great kid. I have to tell myself everyday that it is true. That he did die. He was a true gem that lived everyday the best possibly way he could. I miss him so much.