Still in shock

by Courtney

My Mom died from cancer on May 11, 2012. She was 68. I miss her soooooooooo much and I still can't believe that she is really gone. The one thing that I think over and over is why did it have to be her. I cry almost every day and it seems like it is getting harder not easier. Does anyone else feel this way? I just can't really believe that she is gone and never coming back. When does it get easier? When does the shock fully wear off?

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Sep 23, 2012
Thank you!!
by: Courtney

Thank you all for your responses! I am so sorry for all of your losses. It definitely helps to know that we are not alone in our grief! I will pray for peace, comfort, and some joy for all of you during this difficult time. Thank you! Love, Love, Love!!!

Sep 23, 2012
still in shock
by: sharon

courtney i really do know how you feel as i lost my mum to cancer on the 11th july 2012, and i agree with you,i feel more heartbroken as time goes by. I cry everyday sometimes its so bad that i get into such a despair state when i think i will never see her again. I am crying as i write this as i too cannot believe that she has gone, as she really was my best friend not just my perfect mum. I hope that one day the pain we feel for our losses will ease. We will never forget them but we can cherish the beautiful memories we have of our mums. Take care x

Sep 23, 2012
Going through the same
by: Roops

I can totally relate to u. I lost my mom on 6 may 2011. He ha cancer but it was detected just three weeks prior to her passing away. Came as a complete shock. Even I feel it's getting harder to go on without her. Life is not thr same n can never be the same.what u r going through is natural because u love her and are just grieving for her. Her absence will always be felt and her presence will always be missed. In thr midst of all this , maybe u cud try and find some way of keeping ur mind occupied. I realise that no matter what I do , Shes always on my mind. thats the pain I have to live with. The only factor that keeps me going is my father who I love too much and who lives only for me. And also a hope that one day me and my mother will be together again.......

Sep 22, 2012
Still in shock
by: Doreen U.K.

Courtney I know how you feel. It is almost 5 months since I lost my husband to cancer. We all ask ourselves the same question. Why did it have to happen to us? It is something we can't believe. That the person who loved us and brought us up is gone FOREVER and never coming back. This is the hard part living each day without seeing our loved one again. It is the FINALITY of a life that is hard to accept. It is going to take us all a very long time to go on living with our grief and loss. WE will never get used to this but life is changing all the time and we don't know how many more people are going to leave us. A death leaves us vulnerable to loss. We will worry about who is going to be next. The cycle of life carries on. You will find yourself wanting to tell your mom something and she isn't there and you have no one to tell your special things to. I find this hard. I had my husband here to comfort me when many of our family members and friends died. Now I have to do this alone. My husband won't be here to know when I die. I worry about my 3 Adult childen left and worry about how they will fare in life and who will be here to rescue and comfort them when trouble comes their way. Death forces us to think of the reality of Life and how fragile this is. We will however recover in time. I don't think God would allow us to suffer this pain forever even though it feels like this. A forever pain that gets worse over time. But we have to go on in life till our time comes to leave this world. It is how we lived and died that will be remembered forever.

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