Still in Shock

by Vickie

Saturday, November 24th 2012 started as a semi normal day. My dad had been home from the hospital for a week where he had been since having a mild stroke. The MD expected him to make a full recovery in a short time and we were all so grateful. My daughters and I had been there about 20 minutes and I was joking with dad and my 5 year old nephew. Dad and I were talking and I turned my head to answer a question my nephew asked me when my step mom started screaming my dads name. I looked over at him and he was slumped over in his chair and wasn't breathing. My oldest daughter and I were able to get him out of his chair and we started CPR and thought he would be ok when the EMT's told us they had a pulse after a couple of shocks. We went to the hospital where they told us he kept coding and then told us we needed to say goodbye. He died a couple of hours later.

I'm still in disbelive and wish with all my heart that I would wake up from this nightmare. I have taken care of loved ones that were ill for a while and then died as expected and we had time to prepare ourselves. This was without warning and am having a difficult time accepting it. I'm angry that I couldn't do more, angry at the physicians because they couldn't help him, and just plain angry at how this turned out.I know this will ease in time but it is so painful now.

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Dec 08, 2012
Thank You
by: Vickie

Thank you for for the kind words and understanding. This is a club I'm absolutely positive none of us wanted to join! I know time will help heal but in the meantime, it is good to know there is supprt out there.

Dec 08, 2012
still in shock
by: bill

My father died last Tuesday,thought we had time.My best friend,such a void.A week later it really hit me today and I went to the grave site,flowers were wilted I had to throw them away.I miss him.My father was and is a born again christian believed in Christ with all his heart.So ....I believe I will see him again one day but right now I'm in pain and I feel yours, you are not alone.

Dec 08, 2012
I feel your pain
by: Briena

My dad passed away unexpectedly the day after your father. I'm still in shock too. He was only 59 years old. I live in AZ and he lived in MN. He was in the process of moving out to Az to be with my family. I came accross this website hoping for something, I'm not sure. I'm trying to be strong for my kids and my younger brother and sister but I'm having a terrible time. Nobody was there when he passed away and I never got a last goodbye...that is the hardest part. I'm so sorry for your loss and although I can't say anything to make the pain go away, I do understand. Hard to believe it has been two weeks though. I can only pray this gets easier for the both of us.

Dec 06, 2012
So sorry
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for the loss of your father. I cannot begin to imagine the pain you are in. I lost my husband 13 months ago to cancer, it was not unexpected but I am really good at living in denial and was sure he would have that miracle healing.
Please know you are not alone and if at all possible find a good support group to help you through this.

Dec 05, 2012
I'm so sorry
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry for your loss, it's awful. My Dad passed away suddenly this summer, he was one of the people I was closest too in the world. It gets a little easier with time.

Dec 04, 2012
Still in Shock
by: Doreen U.K.

Vicky I am sorry for your loss of your Dad to a sudden death. I lost my husband 7 months ago to cancer and I am still in shock and disbelief. I can't believe Steve has died and not comeing back home. I had to watch him die slowly over 3yrs. With a nightmare story of a slow painful death. This adds to my grief. I don't know how we will survive the days and months ahead with our loss. The pain of grief is so unbearable. I did not say goodbye to my husband. This is something I could not bring myself to do. I thought he would get a miracle of healing. Steve died suddenly and i wasn't prepared for this. Steve was so sad he didn't want to die. he wanted to live and enjoy his retirement.
I hope that in the days ahead you be well supported in your grief and loss.

Dec 04, 2012
I feel your pain
by: Katie

My Dad went out for a drink just under 3 weeks ago and never came home, he had a heart attack and no-one could save him so I feel your pain. One minute everything's fine with the world and the next minute your worlds come crashing down and you feel like your hearts been ripped out. We're trying to be grateful that he went so quickly and didn't suffer and in time find some peace with that but I promise you the shock does get better and your not alone x

Dec 04, 2012
I'm so sorry...
by: Dori

I'm so sorry to read about your loss. I just lost my father in August. He was my best friend. I'm glad that you were able to see him and talk to him. My father was unconscious for 14 days and woke up one day to say goodbye to us. Thankfully you and your family were there at that moment, though it was tragic. My prayers and thoughts are with you. If you need someone to email, feel free to email me at Take care and God Bless you :)

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