Still in Shock
Saturday, November 24th 2012 started as a semi normal day. My dad had been home from the hospital for a week where he had been since having a mild stroke. The MD expected him to make a full recovery in a short time and we were all so grateful. My daughters and I had been there about 20 minutes and I was joking with dad and my 5 year old nephew. Dad and I were talking and I turned my head to answer a question my nephew asked me when my step mom started screaming my dads name. I looked over at him and he was slumped over in his chair and wasn't breathing. My oldest daughter and I were able to get him out of his chair and we started CPR and thought he would be ok when the EMT's told us they had a pulse after a couple of shocks. We went to the hospital where they told us he kept coding and then told us we needed to say goodbye. He died a couple of hours later.
I'm still in disbelive and wish with all my heart that I would wake up from this nightmare. I have taken care of loved ones that were ill for a while and then died as expected and we had time to prepare ourselves. This was without warning and am having a difficult time accepting it. I'm angry that I couldn't do more, angry at the physicians because they couldn't help him, and just plain angry at how this turned out.I know this will ease in time but it is so painful now.