Still Miss My Sweet Rusty!!
by Cindy Kendrick
My Sweet Rusty!!
I lost my husband on November 15, 2010, after being married for almost 35 years. I am so lost and my heart hurts more than I could ever imagine. I was 18 and he was 28 when we got married on February 7, 1976, and a week later we both celebrated our birthdays, mine on the 15th and his on the 19th. We went together for one month, he asked me to marry him and a month later we got married!
He was the love of my life and best friend. He treated me wonderful, telling me every night before we went to sleep that Jesus loved me. Not a day went by that he would tell me how very much he loved me and how beautiful I was. He told me he would spoil me until the day he died and he did. He had been very healthy all his life, jogging and we recently bought bikes.
He went to work one Monday morning, felt like he had a headache and I guess he passed out. One of the guys went over and shook him and I guess it stimulated his heart. To make a long story short, they did emergency quadruple bypass surgery. One artery 100% blocked and the other three 95%. He made it through surgery, although he went into afib and they controlled that with meds.
I had him home for two weeks and he was doing wonderful and he sat down in his chair and said he felt dizzy and just fell backwards. My brother was here and did CPR and I was doing chest compressions. We got him down on the floor and the paramedics got here and worked on him for about 30 minutes. I keep yelling to him to please don't leave me and I loved him. They took him to the hospital but I never brought him home.
He was the best husband and daddy I could ever ask for. He blessed me with two beautiful children. I never knew I could have so much grief in my life. My heart hurts beyond words. I love you Rusty and I know you are waiting for me at Jesus' feet. I just don't understand why he was taken away from me. We had a wonderful marriage....
January 31, 2010.. It has been two months and the grief is still stabbing me like a knife. I have been crying for two days. I miss Rusty so much... he was such a wonderful man and I miss his hugs & kisses so very much! I have been listening to K LOVE and it blesses me with all the Christian music. I hear the words and a lot of them are my life. I just can't wait to be with Rusty again because I know he is waiting for me at Jesus' feet! I love you so much sweetheart. His birthday would have been February 19th and he would have turned 64. Our anniversary would have been February 7th and we would have been married 35 years. Till we meet again honey, Happy Anniversary & Happy Birthday!! I love you with all my heart...