Sudden Loss of Mummy

Mummy is my life from the day I am born. It's 44 yrs of hug and kisses, almost all time by the side moment of growing up. She is 66 and very very healthy. Doc say that her body is much much younger than her age. But she fall and lost conscious and A&E didn't even scan her head... 12hrs after admitting to hospital and trying in vain to increase her blood pressure and putting her thru' various heart test, finally they scan her head and detected unconfirmed massive bleeding which they claim can only wait for self recovery. 2 days in Critical care n she left me peacefully on 23 Dec 2011 9:30am. While she let me accompany her in her final journey, there is so much more that i wanted to achieve for her and make her proud of me. I really can't live without her. Now life is so meaningless and while I know I got to wait for her to come and fetch me just like she used to when i work late, cos I have no sense of direction, it is really really very very painful... without her touch n love, i don't know how will i ever recover from this.... Obviously, I've not done enough good deeds and probably too heavy to be able to go with her.....

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May 23, 2012
Mummy I want u....
by: Author

6 mths gone by ... the pain didn't really go away... I still cry on my way home alone... I still cry badly when I visit her... I wanted so much of her ... Just when she accepted my pursue of my music education and celebrated my passing of the 1st exam I take, telling me to keep low profile on all my subsequent achievement, I will keep by that and continue to pursue till I reach the final level...

Jan 18, 2012
by: Author

I lived for her only... making her proud of me in my own way... working very hard for her all the while and putting her as my highest priority all the time... but yet I can't go with her... While I know it is an irreversible change, I don't know how to continue with life... I wanted so much her touch and hug.... moments when I hold her hand to sleep.. moments when she hold my hands and lead me home & I walk with my eyes closed after a very exhaustive day of work....
Now, I'm really zombie... going thru' motion to complete commitments and work....
Not sure if anyone really understand, but it is really that painful...

Jan 17, 2012
by: Anonymous

sorry i lost my mom 22 days before you i feel ya all to well :(

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