Sudden Loss Of My Son Joshua
On the evening of January 4, 2012 I received a phone call from your father telling me that you were gone. I didn’t understand at first what your father meant by gone. He told me you were found dead on your apartment floor. You died of a sudden heart attack. Joshua you were only 31 years old. You were alone. My heart aches knowing you died alone. I can’t begin to put into words how empty I feel inside. It’s as if the very core of my being has fallen out and everything I see around me is in indiscriminate shades of gray. There is no longer any color or any joy in my life. Every time I close my eyes I still see you as a small child and all I can think is how I failed to protect you from this. I want to pick you up and hold you close so I can keep you safe. You will forever be my sweet baby boy. I miss you so much Joshua.