Its my first Christmas without you Brian. I spent the day with our oldest and dearest friends and they did their best and I also really tried hard but...oh I missed you so much.
It has to get better. Its not possible to continue feeling this much pain and sorrow and not die myself.
I did feel you close to me though and I believe that you also missed me and your girls and wished you could be there with us. I also believe that, although you are no longer part of this human existence, the essence of you and your love for us is still as strong and abiding as it ever was and that it will never end.42 years of being together cannot just end with your last breath. We forged a bond together that, in spite of everything, the good and the bad, that goes to make up a marriage, will endure forever. You were my soulmate. I love you more than I have loved anyone else in my whole life.
Sue xxx

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Dec 31, 2011
not one inch
by: Anonymous

I lost my husband on 11/30/2011 after a hard battle with mantle cell lymphoma. We were married for 36 years and did everything together. He was kind and funny and quirky and he was mine.
I read something about a man who had lost his dad and how much it hurt. He said that you never move on from something like that.. not one inch. It just changes the person you become. I'm hoping we become someone who can bear this pain and find some peace of mind.

Dec 28, 2011
Your Soulmate
by: M Mack


What a beautiful couple you were. When you say he's still with you and his family you are so right. His body is gone but his spirit lives on. You are not alone in the grief journey and many of us are plodding through as survivors finding our way. I am now 15 months without my soulmate and life as I know it is not the same. Even family and good friends don't understand the magnitude of pain involved with loosing the love of your life. I will never be the same person I was. We had plans to grow old, dreams and so many things we wanted to do. Not one day goes by that I don't think about him still. Thank God I found this site (or it found me) because I was ready to go over the edge with grief. Keep writing and find comfort knowing you are never alone. My best to you and prayers for strength and courage to endure this very lonely journey without your soulmate by your side.

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