Ten years ago me and my husband started our own computer business...and The Control Freak Emerged!....But was not as bad as a year ago last April. That was when we found out my back was twice broken, I have emphysema, Fibromyalgia, a lesion on my thyroid and spots on my liver, along with arthritis and degenerative disc disease...(to name most)
Then the The Control Freak Really came out...And because now He Can't Control my condition..He is controlling everything about me, and he just can't be pleased! All the info says, "a win does not register on his scoreboard, he just moves on to changing (controlling) something else" And the info. says "Leave a CF, because he will never change" And some Info. says "Run!"
He has Never in 30 years got In My Face and Yelled At Me--At The Top Of His Lungs before! but he has twice this last year! and that's a bad sign !...(it could mean violence may be next?)
I Even spent 4 + months on 5 tries of antidepressants (for The Families Sake!) which made me Worse and bedridden for months! And somewhere he has Lost Me in the process...
Now I'm at a loss!
First, I feel like I'm still trying to get through the stages of grief, over my own conditions. (that my husbands controlling ways, and the months that the meds stole from me, and kept me from getting!)
Second, Now that This whole CF thing has messed up my relationship, and now I feel like I'm Mourning My Marriage!
I feel Stuck here because of my conditions...I don't know IF to leave, or Where To Go?...as you see I have many conditions,
and he did promise to take care of me....do I continue with a
sexless, non loving marriage because I need to? I sure would rather Want To! (sorry to ramble so long-guess I needed to vent some! ) And this is only the tip of the iceberg! :(
Anyone got any suggestions, ideas, thoughts, and/or Prayers!
If So Thanks Muchly! :)