My story is that, I never ever dreamed my friend would take his life.
I did not know how DEEP his sorrow was.
What is worse, is that, he has asked me, told me to come and see him to cheer him up.
I was not feeling well myself after a major operation and ill health.
I did not go, But thought of him often.
After one month, I heard the horrible news that he did take his life with pills.
You may not know the anger I have for myself the grief and longing to see him again Happy, Whole and ALIVE.
You do not know how I always tried to help others and this time I BLEW IT, I totally BLEW IT, I can't forgive myself,
Nor can I get the sadness out of my heart, for Peter.
Others tried to talk to him, I have heard, others saw a sad and lost man
Many asked "Have you seen him?" He had not come out in a very long time.
His apartment sits, untouched, his imprint left on the floor, a ghastly reminder of how he left us.
I am sorry, this is too much information.
I want to join this site as soon as my credit card clears .which will be in a few days.
I NEED the help of this site, I cannot let go of my guilt and sorrow,
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