My fiance overdosed on heroin on Christmas night.There is such unspeakable grief that I am feeling that at times I cannot speak. When I talked with the coroner, he really believes he killed himself because they also found 30 Celexa pills which are just anti-depressant. Tom had been an alcoholic his whole life at least for 40 years he was 58 when he died. His parents were both alcoholics and he had little support. But how could he have done that on Christmas did he want me to hate the holidays for the rest of my life? My grief is still there but the anger is more powerful how could I not have known he had another life and I'm sure my life could have been in danger. To all out there who think their loved ones can be helped walk away don't waste your life. Addiction is progressive, resistant to treatment and you either die from it or become insane.