by Paula

My fiance overdosed on heroin on Christmas night.There is such unspeakable grief that I am feeling that at times I cannot speak. When I talked with the coroner, he really believes he killed himself because they also found 30 Celexa pills which are just anti-depressant. Tom had been an alcoholic his whole life at least for 40 years he was 58 when he died. His parents were both alcoholics and he had little support. But how could he have done that on Christmas did he want me to hate the holidays for the rest of my life? My grief is still there but the anger is more powerful how could I not have known he had another life and I'm sure my life could have been in danger. To all out there who think their loved ones can be helped walk away don't waste your life. Addiction is progressive, resistant to treatment and you either die from it or become insane.

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Jan 27, 2013
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for what should have been a joyous time. I take issue for your sad commentary on addiction. If I had given up on my children in their addiction, I wonder where they would be today.
Don't ever feel you wasted your years or that you failed him. What happened is not your fault. I am just so sorry for what the holidays bring to all of us that lost loved ones. He was a sick man, Paula. Remember the good times with Tom. God bless you and let you know happiness again.

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