Sweet Charlotte, my doxie

by Jennifer
(Virginia)

I am so glad a website like this exists. I think people around me don't understand this terrible grief. On March 25th, we had our beloved dachshund, Charlotte put to sleep. The day before, while on a walk with me, she fell down our front steps. She seemed ok the rest of the day, even going for a long walk with me that night.

When I got home from work on the 25th, she was paralyzed and in incredible pain. The emergency vet said it would be miraculous if she ever walked again. Plus she would be susceptible to infections and sores with paralyzed legs. Knowing how much she loved to run, play and chase our cats, we knew she wouldn't want to live like that.

My Charlotte was with me for only 5 1/2 years. I wouldn't take one day back, but I would give anything for one more. I must have kissed her a million times, but I would kiss her a million more. She was truly my best friend. She was my companion through a divorce, and I always said she was the best thing to become of that marriage.

When I got re-married, she was there, giving me kisses in my wedding dress. She has been by my side every single day since she was a puppy. She used to cry when I got in the shower because she couldn't be with me. She eventually learned it was ok, to just wait on the mat outside of the shower. We're expecting our first child in November, and I cannot believe this baby won't ever get to meet my Charlotte. Her life was cut too short.

I've tried to look for signs that she's ok now. Until this happened, I thought it was so easy to believe in God and heaven, but it's really not easy since I'm so worried about her. I feel so much guilt about her falling down the stairs. I am consumed with all the "what if's." I wish I would have carried her down the stairs that day, or taken her to the vet just to make sure she was ok. What if I came home for lunch and checked on her?

Our house is so, so quiet without her, even with 2 cats. The bond I had with her was incredible and I hope one day when it's my time to go, she'll be waiting with a wagging tail for me. I can't wait to be reunited with her.

We always called her Poochie... I love you, Poochie.

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Sweet Charlotte, my doxie

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Apr 18, 2010
 We Hear You
by: Joe

I am so sorry to read about your little girl. It is very unfortunate that we here have also been there, and know how tough it is. Do a lot of reading on sites like this one and others, it will help occupy your mind. It has now been 1 year since my wife passed and 6 months since my chihuahua, Mr. Lucky, passed. I'm better, but, Not Much. I wish I had some magic dust or powder or the right words to make you feel better. But, I don't. Most people, outside this website, don't know how we feel. It is important to be with people who DO know how you feel. Good luck to you, and may time pass quickly.
Apr 06, 2010
 we are with you in your prayers
by: Oscar P.

Hi Jennifer,

I am sorry to hear about your loss! It's been more than six months and it seems like yesterday. I understand what you are going through, and by writing about your emotions here we are honoring our beloved ones and letting the pain go away!
There will be good and bad days, hopefully one day the love we felt will surpass the pain we are suffering now. I wish you and your family well.

Oscar P.
Mar 30, 2010
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by: Down Under

Jennifer, my condolences on the loss of sweet Charlotte. You should feel blessed that you had 5.5 wonderful years with her and it seems she brought so much love and joy into your life. Cherish those moments and keep her spirit alive. She is watching down on you all, just keep watching out for that sign, it will come. Take care.

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