Sweet John's mom again, fly with the angels,

by Colleen

I read all your stories and wish I could ease your pain somehow. My son died on April 30th this year, the day my life changed forever. We are having a memorial next Saturday, the reason we waited was because, I needed all his brothers there, and one of them was in Afghanistan and could not come home again till then.
My life has changed so much in the last four months, as you know mourning your son (or daughter) is the hardest thing in the world. My stomach still gets that sick feeling when I think of the day he died, and the ache in my heart is always there. I was working two jobs, last week I quit one, because life is too short. I have finally gotten closer to my husband (his stepfather) because I had to embrace him being there, even though at one time I resented him not understanding and telling me to get on with my life. He knows now my life is different, I hurt and will cry for no reason and he doesn't ask me what is wrong, just hugs me. He lets me talk about it because it is on my mind and in my heart. I go on for my other children, grand children and him, but I will never be the same. I know my son, John would not want me to be miserable every minute of ever day, so in his honor, I try to be what I can to the ones I love.
Any way next weekend, we are going to California, to give my son a final resting place at our family's cemetery.
At 11:00 we are having, a short mass, his godfather is reading this poem:

God saw that he was getting tired
A cure not to be
So He put His arms around him
and whispered "Come with Me"
With tearful eyes, we watched him suffer
And saw him fade away
Although we loved him dearly
We could not make him stay
A golden heart stops beating
Hard working hands to rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes "the best"

After the reading, the priest is sing to sing "Amazing Grace" The song that then will be played is "Jesus will meet you there", look this song up and watch the video with the tree, maybe it will give you some comfort.
We then our having a graveyard service at his nitch and the song then will be "When i get where I am going"
as we release balloons in his honor.
Please say a prayer for me to get through this day
Thank you

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Sep 03, 2011

..of you and your son, and hoping you reach a place that will give you only joy at the thought of him,,even laughter as you remember him learning to stumble his way through life.

I look forward to that day as well. I want to think of the joy that Tristan brought, not the sorrow his passing has left.

Hugs to you and yours...


Sep 02, 2011
by: Anonymous

Colleen, sending hugs your way. I would like to think that my Dimitri and your John have met up in Heaven and are looking down upon us and sending love. I'm glad that you can finally have your memorial service for him but I'm so sorry that you have to have one at all. It's so hard losing a child. It just changes your life.
Shirley in Southern California

Sep 02, 2011
Prayers for you & your family
by: Andrew's Mom

Please take comfort in knowing God will be with you during this time. The song that a friend sent me after my Andrew passed away May 13, 2011 was Scott Krippaynes "Sometimes he calms the storms, sometimes he calms the child". The video on that is also so beautiful. Andrew was in a coma from May 7th until the morning of May 13th. The night before he passed God let me see the most vivid rainbow from end to end I had ever seen. My Priest who was around 80 miles away at the time saw a perfect rainbow around the same time. So I knew that was confirmation God heard my prayers, but was answering them in a way different than I would have wished. God bless from Andrew's Mom

Sep 02, 2011
thank you for telling us about John
by: Anonymous

I will pray for you, you are right, I can think of no pain, no grief greater than to lose one's child, yet you were so loving to write this in John's memory and honor, and to help us who are going through loss of loved ones. Thank you and may God bless you.

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