Sweet Tony gone almost a year...
I look for Tony everywhere. I look for him to pick me up from work. I look @ the people in the tunnel...wishing to see him walk up to me with his straw hat on and his sweet smile. I am with his granddaughter soon to be 9 every weekend...she is a joy. Thank you GOD for this kindness. I miss Tony more than words can convey. We were together 18 years. I miss his hands and his kisses and hugs. I talk to him all the time in my head and he talks to me. I feel he is still with me sometimes. I am trying to move on to honor him/us. I am sooo tired of being sad and want to laugh again. With GOD and Tony's help...perhaps I can do this thing. Tony sent me a wonderful dog/puppy to help fill the loneliness. Please all look to what you have and the small mercies to help get you through all this grieving struggle. I cried hard yesterday. I am exhausted from the saddness. I pray all the time for people around me and for strength to get thru each day. I was with him to the last breath...I never abandoned him. I was blessed to have him as my best friend and trusted him and felt so SAFE with him. Sweet love and peace to you in heaven Tony ...my heart...my love. Till we meet again.