Taken from us at 17, an amazing child

by Linda
(San Diego)

Bre is our daughter. She turned 17 on March 16, 2010. Taken from us May 28, 2010. There was a car accident, Bre was a passenger in the back middle seat, there were 4 others in the car, all their lives were saved, all except our Bre. The accident occurred when Bre's very best friend, hit an on coming vehicle. Bre's friend was driving and ran head on into a Moving truck.

Bre, we are told, died instantly, they say she had no pain. I don't know how they know that, did she speak? We never got to see her, we arrived on the scene just minutes after and were told by a witness that our daughter was dead. It has been 3 weeks and we don't understand. Bre had 2 Dads, the one she lived with here and her Biological Father in another city. I am Mom. Bre left behind a brother my son, a half brother and 3 half sisters.

My grief is multiplied to the extent that I cannot take away my pain and my inability to help them is devastating. You are right when you say the loss of a child is the worst, no one should have to feel this pain. It will never go away, Our lives will never be the same. Each of us is unsure how to fit into this knew life, we all know we don't want it. We all only wish Bre was home, again not understanding why, why Bre.

Guilt, I feel guilty for not protecting her, I fell guilty because I should of been there, she died alone, with strangers. I so wish I was there for here. Punished, I don't know what I have done to deserve such punishment. To now live my life without my best friend, my other half.

Anger, oh I am angry, death is not negotiable, you cannot change it, you cannot wish it not true, you are helpless. Faith, I question it, I believe but I question why, why Bre, why us. We have a huge journey ahead of us, as individuals and as a family, but without our Bre, it at the moment seems a journey we do not understand.
Mom