Talking about his death makes my nightmares worse.
My grandfather died on the 12-06-12, everyone says that talking about it will make everything better. The story remains the same each time I talk about it but each night I have nightmares about finding him and everything little detail is played back in my mind. I found my grandfather dead on the kitchen floor, he died suddenly and was covered in blood. I am 18 and it hasn't sunk in. Everyone says it was the shock and that its normal because I was alone when I found him. My nan was shopping and my parents on holiday in Turkey. Since they returned I had to tell them what had happened but since talking with my parents, I have the same dream of finding him, but I have options the main aspects stay the same, but slight choices such as other family members picking up the phone as they were all in work or the paramedics phoning the police, coroner and other families jobs that I couldn't reach. Talking about it doesn't make it easier but the nightmares make it harder for me to sleep each night. My mother says its just because it was so recent but they didn't happen until they came home. I have no idea how to deal with it. I am lucky if I have 3 hours sleep a night.