Teddie M. Gadsden

by kim
(charleston sc)

I write to you daily even though you cant see. I know its because I miss you here with me. I miss you so much words cant describe. The pain I feel after being alone all of a sudden has me in total shock.Its been a month and I am absolutely positively only living because ,,,,,unfortunately I cant just drop dead..cause if I could I certainly would!

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May 07, 2012
 i really dont see a need to live
by: kim

I just basically go through the motions of caring for my family...it really takes a great effort to even cook dinner now. I absolutely dont want to do anything anymore. if my family knew how i felt it would hurt them ...but the truth is ...i really want to die
May 03, 2012
 I write too
by: Molly

Hi Kim,
my son Quinn passed away 9 months ago and I am still not believing that this has happened to us. Because not only did I lose Quinn he also lost his life and he loved life. I too write to Quinn everyday letters and poems. I need that outlet or I think I would just lose my mind. I dream and wish every day that God in his mercy will not keep me here long that I can be with my beautiful son. Because without him I feel empty and lost. I have great friends and I have family but it still can't fill that void of thinking about the spending the rest of my life without my son. This was not in my future plans, things aren't suppose to happen this way a Mother should not outlive her son. Quinn was just perfect in everyway to me accept he had heart disese. I don't know how to keep living or why but I am going to try and do my best for Quinn and try to be a better person because that is what he would want for me to do. dont get me wrong I have alot of anger inside but my son was calm and loving and he would want me to be my best so that I will do for him until the day God brings us together again.
May 02, 2012
 thank you
by: kim

Thank you for the comments. I know im not going through this alone.Im sorry about your losses as well. What really kills me is when people actually tell you to "get over it". Thirteen years plus of being with someone who was a major part of your life? Some people are so cruel.........
May 01, 2012
 So sorry for your loss
by: Cathy

Hi Kim, this is angel Brandon's mom, i am truly sorry for your loss, i lost my angel 6 months ago and it is still so shocking, the first three months were awful, i used to cry all the time,i could not control myself now i have learnt to hide my sorrow and say hi to people before i never used to talk to anyone. The pain does not go away you do not stop missing them in fact as the months go bye you miss them more and more. It is just that people forget they existed but how can you when a part of you has gone with him.I pray a lot and because only god can heal us and i visit this site , it gives me a lot of comfort. I will pray for you because the journey of life is very lonely and difficult without them. God bless u.
May 01, 2012
 I Feel the Same
by: Anonymous

It has been 5 weeks since my beloved wife died. My whole reason for being was her. I will welcome death when it comes. I am just religious enough to not harm myself purposely. I think I have to continue my life and suffer the pains just so
God might reunite me with her. I feel that we have much more to give each other. She loved me as I loved her. Disease and pain finally took her and she is no longer suffering from that. I know she would want me to go on and do the best I can. I hope you do the same. They say time heals but I also heard it could take up to 3 years. So, lets go on one day at a time and it will pass as we will maybe to reunite with the ones we have so loved.

Michael

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