Teffany Marie Gerbine Reddin 1970-2000
by Jean Gerbine
It has been almost 14 years ago that we lost our beautiful Teffany Marie at 29 years of age. She was the most beautiful baby and grew to be a beautiful woman. Both inside and out. She loved her family, her children and her God. She fought a good fight and never lost her faith. Toward the end. She said the hardest thing she ever did was to gather her 4 small children and tell them she may not make it. She ask them to please not be mad at God. Right before we lost her, she ask her pastor to come to her bedside. There she dedicated her children to God and left them in his hands. There was no safer place to put them if she had to go.
I will never understand the reason God took her from us but more importantly from her 4 children.
Our loss has been unbearable at times. The only way I can describe it is your heart keeps beating and your lungs keep sucking air whether you want it to or not. I have lost parents and other loved ones but there is no hurt like losing a child. I can only hurt that bad one more time. I pray that we are never required to do so,because thank God we still have our son.
Time has eased the pain but has not erased the memories. I never want to erase the memories, not one smell, look or laugh. To me other than loosing a loved one, the next worst thing to happen is for them to be forgotten. As long as her father and I are alive that will never happen.
It is said by many, "when I get to heaven I am going to ask God why." When that day comes and I am reunited with my beautiful daughter. It will no longer matter.