I'm 23 years old lost my dad 8 days ago,im on the internet trying to look at what are heart attacks caused from. because it seems so unreal.he was fine never had any heart problems, and im just having a very hard time excepting this,i lost my dad in 1 hour not knowing and not expecting anything.I'm the oldest in the family and have 3 younger brothers and a little sister, my youngest brother is 10 years old. i feel pain and guilt i feel that life is not worth living anymore, my mom does not sleep she has been with my dad since she was 15 years old. He was her only friend husband everything..i feel like he is just out and will come back until i get everyone saying "im sorry for your loss" :
i dont know what to do anymore, i feel that life is nothing anymore..ive had many problems and never payed any attention to what he always thought .. i feel so guilty .. i haven't sat down with him ever and explained the way i feel about him. i dont think he ever knew. he was the best father i have ever known.
i just feel to much pain..he was only 46
i dont understand he was so good and he just left us all heart broken, i dont know what to do anymore. ergghhh
i cant get hes face out of my head.
its been 8 days it feel like 8 years of pain.
it doesn't look like it will get better, it seems like everyday that passes by i realize that hes not coming back..will it ever get better.
i dont have the strength or energy to go anywhere..school,work,out.. noo where....will i ever be ok.. will i ever... i dont think i will.. i dont know how to overcome this pain ....