by jean
(Texas usa)

I've posted one blog previously on this site under texadtechfan. I guess IM moving forward but the pain is still huge I love 300 miles from my dads house I have to go there every few weeks to be with my brother and go through dads belongings I have disabling fibtomyalgia and arthritis which makes things more challenging I usually have to be helped to make the trip seems like I just got through doing away with my husbands things my dads stuff is different HE WaS MY PRECIOUS DAD and MY BESTFRIEND he livedin that house 60 years . that's where mom and dad raised my brother and me it is so so so hard and heart wrenching to see it all go piece by piece it hurts !it hurts !it hurts ! most of their things have stayed in our family tht helps a lot but it's still awful I know I'll get through this but it's the most difficult thing I've ever faced nothings anymore I m so sad ive lost my mom my husband my two best friends and now my dad in less than two and a half years i just get to dealing with one loss and something else hapoens losing my dad had been just awfulheartwrenching unbelievable grief blessings and strength to all who read my posting I welcome your comments and support

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Apr 25, 2013
by: Doreen U.K.

Jean I am so sorry for all the people you have lost from your life in these 2 and a half years.
You are also battling Arthritis and Fybromyalgia. I have this also along with my 2 sisters and this is the most unbearable physical pain as it limits our mobility. I lost my husband of 44yrs. almost a year ago and I have faced the worst physical pain ever. I think our Grief contributes to our being in more physical pain.
Sorting out our loved one's belonging is so very difficult to do. I have done half of this and the other half I can't cope with now so is in the log cabin outside of the house until I feel ready to tackle this. It is something we have to do. I swallowed hard. Looked up and somehow disconnected myself from who these belonging were, and I managed to put everything in black bags and give them to charity. My husband has a leather waistcoat arrived from America before he died. He has cowboy boots and a guitar and I can't deal with this now. All his Elvis CD's sitting in the Log cabin. I can't listen to them anymore. It HURTS.
We will get through this one day at a time till it is done. Pray for strength when you are doing this and you will be able to cope. Best wishes.

Apr 25, 2013
by: cowboysfan

mom this is your son, i know all of the traumatic events have torn you temporary apart but you will recover, you have me. rain never lasts forever, it fades away to the bright sunny days. even rainforests give away to brighter days. no other woman would be able to deal with what youve been going through. i too have felt the pain, my first birthday without any card or call from either of your parents has came and gone. theres no more grandparents left. its a first. like i said, i have at least 70 years of life left. my heart is forever open

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