The Best Grandma in the world, Gone, but Never Ever Forgotten.

by Kaedi
(Utica, MI)

January 21st, 2012 will be a night I will never forget. I got a call from my mom saying drs are trying to revive her and are having no luck and no one is telling the drs to stop and they are electroshocking her over and over.

My great aunt called up my dad and said, she's gone and your sisters won't call it, what do you want me to do? My dad says, tell we love her and call it. She's gone and done. We need to let her go. Tell we love her, and call it.

We my parents and I live in Michigan. My grandma lived in Iowa where I grew up in my early years, so losing her while up here is not easy. I was going to attend her funeral, but my mom ended up in the hospital with a very bad anxiety attack and I couldn't make the trip myself. Besides that, my niece was molested in November and the whole family out there in Iowa thought nothing of it that it was okay and we couldnt go and bear sitting with them when they never cared about my grandma to begin with.

My grandma went to dialysis 3x a week and took the bus while her kids lived less then 3 miles away from her. While in the hospital this last time, my aunt was told to get her down to surgery to put a stint in her heart to keep her going that we only had a window of time and they didn't listen, so she died of a heart attack.

My grandma was truly amazing. Made homemade chicken and noodles, jam, homemade cookies for the holidays and always lived through her grand children. I miss her more and more every day and it feels as if it never gets easier.

I feel like Im crazy and getting mad at my fiancee for nothing really only to recollect my thoughts and realize I'm lashing at him because I miss her. Not sure how to cope, I just know, I blame myself for not calling her more often then I should or getting out there to visit.

For now, until I see her again, Grandma, you were the best there ever was and I'm blessed to have had you as mine. Until we meet again, I love you.

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