The day I lost my passion, love, best friend, my thousand mile wish, my everything.
I'm 29 years old, she was 31 would be 32 this month. We were together together, as she liked to say, for 7 years, married 3. We have 3 children together, the oldest 2 from previous relationships. I love my kids either way, i see them as mine plain and simple. We first met when i was 13 she would have been 15. We met when I went to the grand opening of a new movie theater with friends. We met up with other friends and as it turned out she was with them as she was friends with the same people as me. When I saw her little else mattered, it was love at first sight for me, I would later find out it was the same for her. We sat together during the movies and hung out after wards. I was hooked right then and there. We didn't stay together how ever, we both went our own way to live our lives. We would many years later see each other again at a club. We were together from that moment on. I am a writer and even I c an not find the word to tell you how much I love my wife, or how she made me feel every day, or how devastated I now am. October 30, I woke that morning to find paramedics preforming CPR on my wife, I then what was coming. They tried to use their jargon but that didn't help because I know what the terms mean. They took her to the hospital and not long after they called it. As it turned out she died of sudden and complete heart failure, at 31. I miss her so much, I hate that this has happened,I'll never get to hold her, laugh with her or at her, see her smile, kiss her lips, rub her legs, make love to her, or wake up next to her again. Now I'm just numb and empty, you may say that will pass and this a normal feeling but before you say such things you need to understand, I don't want to live with out her and there are only two reasons I have not just ended my life, one is our kids the other is because I don't know what may happen to me if I did take my own life, doing do may result in never being with her again and that would be pointless and the worse thing that could ever happen, yes worse then what had ask ready had happened. I had been with many women before my wife, around 100, and none of them can even come close to her. I will never love again simple as that. I am destroyed, broken, lost and empty. I miss her so much, I love her so much.