The Day "My" Angel Got Her Wings 7-1-85 to 3-2-13

by Anna Brewer
(Lexington, Kentucky)

The way I feel about her

The way I feel about her

The way I feel about her
What a precious beautiful blessing
Loving her little sister
Her and me

My first born,my first real true love.Even though I loved her father more than life itself, I found out when this precious child was born what the true meaning of love really was. I had already had 2 miscarriages and prayed to to overcome anything that would or could make me lose her. Then the day before my 21st birthday July 2nd 1985 she came ,the exact day she was suppose to. She was perfect in every way and oh so beautiful. God really blessed me that day in so many ways she was the idea "perfect" baby. She changed my life more than she could have possibly realized. I had her for 27 years and God saw how great her heart was and what a wonderful person she had become. She fought an addiction for at least 8 years and I mean fought it hard, but unfortunately the addiction won. The day I lost her will forever be burned into my memory. How can I possibly live without her? I don't want to but I know she would never want me to do anything other than somehow continue living. There's no way to put in words how awesome of a person she was, with a heart full of more compassion than most people will ever have in a lifetime. She did not see color or wealth everyone in her eyes were equal.She did have a tendency to give to the homeless whether it be to give them her last dollar or buying them something to eat or taking them to her house to feed them. She has come to me me several times and whatever we could scrounge together she would take to people. I as well as the world lost a beautiful soul that day. I guess God knew more than she or I and knew her place was to be in Heaven where finally she could rest and her addiction would never again win. I can't wait to see,hear,smell,touch and tell her I love her once again. He knew my daughter Angel had to come home to be one of his Angels.

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May 21, 2014
Evil addiction
by: Jacquie Stanley

Dear Anna and the others that commented to her, just 19 days ago I lost my perfect son Ryan, 28 yrs old. He too lost his battle with addiction. My son was a beautiful soul just like the others so lovingly written about. He truly loved all people and everyone who knew him loved him. Even our mechanic showed up at his service and spoke highly of our son. Even as I write this, I still can't believe he is gone. I know I will never be the same but I hope that at some point I will be able to find joy again. I know for sure that is what
Ryan would want for me. For now I feel a bottomless sadness that I never knew existed. Please pray for my son and I will pray for your children. Pray also that we stop losing precious lives to this monster!

Jul 08, 2013
compassionate friends
by: Anna Brewer

I want to thank so sad dad in Versailles for making me aware of Compassionate Friends. When my daughter first died,I called and looked everywhere for this very type of therapy. It seemed to be everywhere but in Kentucky, I truly believe only people who have lost a child understand this kind of pain. It seems as though everyone else believes time really does heal all wounds. We as parents know that could not be farther from the truth. Again many thanks go out to this man who I can tell is deeply hurt by his loses also.

Jul 02, 2013
kind souls
by: s.jane.f

Dear Anna--I am so sorry about the loss of your precious daughter. I lost my first-born in March also, also to addiction. He was 19 and also a beautiful soul. He knew the names of the homeless and used to talk to them and give them money or anything he could when he had it. He used to tell us, "They're people too." Your daughter sounds very similar. It reminds me of the saying, "Only the good die young." Like you, I know my son would want me to go on. And like you, I know how terribly difficult it is. I'll think of you--struggling to truly LIVE when I feel like giving up. I don't know if it will help you at all, but know that there are many of us who relate to your pain, and many of us trying to go on in some kind of meaningful way in the wake of this horrible and shocking reminder of the impermanence of all life. I truly wish you peace.

Jul 02, 2013
Please considering coming...
by: SoSadDad

Anna, I'm very, very sorry that you have lost your daughter, and especially to such a horrendous monster that is addiction. I have also lost my two daughters to addiction, and it is so painful to remember how hard they struggled and yet could not overcome the monster. I encourage you to come to a Compassionate Friends meeting. There is one tonight, Tuesday, 7/2, in Lexington, at the Hospice building on Alexandria Drive at 6:30 p.m. If you are not familiar with Compassionate Friends, it is an organization run by bereaved parents, offering a safe place to grieve. Nothing is asked of you, but you are welcomed and given the opportunity to talk if you want to. Many have just sat and cried the first few meetings. There is no judgment - no matter the manner of death, a child has died. We meet the first Tuesday of each month. There is also a chapter in Frankfort, which meets the first Thursday and the third Monday of each month. You can go to www.compassionatefriends.org and locate the chapters. If you are not ready yet, just take your time. Again, I am very sorry for this loss and the heartache that you are experiencing.

God bless you,
SoSadDad, Versailles, KY

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