The day my world stopped turning
by Gary Egge
(Las Vegas, NV USA)
They say love makes the world go around; well my world stopped turning on April 29th, 2011. That's the day my wife, Yong Sun died. We were married for 34 years and even after nine months I am just now learning to cope with the sorrow and loss. I never knew I could feel this bad for this long. Even though she had been sick for 15 years, I never contemplated life without her. I think I would best describe grief as shock on top of deep sorrow. The pain was so intense I was numb for the first nine weeks. I think the hardest part was I couldn't find someone to talk to that I knew would listen. I was uncomfortable sharing my pain with anyone I knew and men just don't share their feelings with other men. All I knew was it had to be a stranger and a woman. On July 4th I was introduced to a lady who was kind enough to listen and she allowed me to poor my feelings upon her. In order to cope, I needed to escape from the pain, even if it was only for a little while. Independence day will now have a special meaning for me; the day I was freed from my unbearable pain. I believe that God sent Jami for that sole purpose, to ease my pain. It was she who sent me some books on grief that have allowed me to continue to move forward. My world will never be the same, but at least it has started to turn again.