the death of my husband
My husband of 38 years....somehow started getting panic attacks..and felt he let people down, with jobs through his business, in our small town community. I tried to reason with him that he was over reacting...Things got worse and the Doctor put him on meds for depression. One month later...he was convinced he was going to prison for doing faulty plumbing work. He thought the feds were going to arrest him. One Sat. he hide all night with 27degrees outside..with no coat on. Only to end up commiting suicide, when 2 of the search party found him, hiding in a fence roll. He did it because he thought they seen him and he was captured. On his way to Prison...I could not convince him otherwise...My husband was only sick in his mind for 2 months prier to this. I can't believe this happened! For my husband was a upbeat, jolly man. Very well loved in the community! My life will never be the same! I miss him so much! He was the love of my life! There was no letter..this was not a planned suicide at all..I told the search party if they would please leave...my husband would come home..He was so scared! I have 2 sons and 5 grandkids who I now live for..But my heart is broken and I still think he's going to walk in that door. But life goes on...and God is helping me cope!