The First year

by Rusty Johnson
(Chattanooga, TN)

My name is rusty and my mom passed away on june 21st 2011, it is now may 7th 2012, my mom passed away when i was 17, and i am now 18 and i have 3 little brothers to help with this subject as well, along with my grandmother (my mothers mother) her father went home the after my mom did. my mommy was a cancer patient with the AIDS virus, she was a very special woman, she loved everyone and everything just for who they were, she was also a great christian woman, although she had made bad decisions in her life, she always had good intentions, i was the first born, and her best friend,as she called me, when i was born she wrote a poem called "my best friend" and she was a very talented artist and poet, but when i read it i couldn't help but breakdown and cry, and cry. i miss my mom everyday of my life and i feel like no matter what she would be proud of me, but she is disappointed in who i've been lately, but i know she is a better place, but i cant help but mis her dearly, and wish she was back here with me.

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May 14, 2012
It gets better.
by: Charlie

I feel as if I relate to you somewhat. My mother died near the date of yours, 17th July 2011. Even though the situations are different, I can understand the tough times during the first year. Seeing as we are both young. I myself was only 16 when my mother died, leaving me with nothing, no family, no support. I was basically homeless.
It's tough I know. But they say it gets better.

May 11, 2012
The First year
by: Kerinjane

I'm sure your Mum would be very proud of you, it's so hard to loose a Mum 13yrs later and I still feel it, she's not there to see my children, I was 22 when my Mum passed. The first year is the worst, I can't really say it get's easier, just different. Hang in there. XX

May 08, 2012
The First Year
by: Federico

I read carefully your love letter. Parents can make bad decisions, like my Mum, passed on 29th september last. I see you were a friend of your Mum, and this is not easy. I understand you very well.

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