the greatest father I knew

by kim Moody
(sebastopol ca )

My father was the greatest man I knew he was gone way to soon I was a daddy's girl I used to go to his meetings with him I used to sit on his lap then when I got older we started arguing and I was mean sometimes, so on April 2, 2012 my dad went to his meeting and came home and I was hanging out outside and when I came in my dad was already asleep so I went to bed and my dad woke me up asking me to sit with him so I did and he said he was having bad chest pains and I thought it was heartburn but I knew he was acting very odd so I said should I call 911 and he said no I'm just gonna go to bed so I went to bed to, the next morning my two dogs were going nuts and I heard no noise in the living room and I wasn't hearing my dad wake me up for school like usual so I walked out of my room saw my dad's door open I went in cause his eyes were open and I shook his leg and said dad dad wake up and he was so cold and stiff I called 911 and got my neighbor's and my neighbor said Hes gone there's no pulse I started balling and all I could think was am I dreaming he can't be gone I just couldn't think straight once that was over I blamed myself for the death and for his heart attack and you still do two years later what should I do I miss my dad I should of been a better daughter but I miss my daddy Gerald Allen Moody I love you so much r.I.p. ♥

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Apr 30, 2014
the greatest father I knew
by: Doreen UK

Kim I am so sorry for your loss of your Dad to a sudden death.
You are not so uncommon from most people feeling we should have done things better! with all the usual WHY'S. You wouldn't have known your father was in trouble. The only positive thing from his death is that he passed away quickly and perhaps with no length of suffering pain. Hold onto this positive thought.
Next thing to do is to release yourself of the guilt of "as you say not being a good daughter." None of us are as good as we want to be. Life happens and sometimes we can all be mean and say horrid things from that moment we are in. A lot of the way one feels also springs from MATURITY. You sound young and not expected to act mature when you are young and growing up. We all mature at different levels. Some maturity comes from our nurturing, and much from our years. At least you were in the house. You were available if your father needed you. You would have gone to your father if the need arose. Often we have to think of what we did do and not so much of what we didn't do. I hope you have good support to help you cope with your loss of your father and also as you go through life. WE all need someone to lean on. For me this is GOD. GOD is always there when no one else is.

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