The LORD Blessed me for 28 years
After 3 years, I've came to the conclusion something good happened out of our tragedy.
We lost our only adult child from complications of a slip & fall injury. How do you get told she's fine, she's all healed, no problem, she can fly to spend the weekend, yadda, yadda? When I picked her up, she had a case of bronchitis, on top of injury 3 months prior. She was happy to see us, her old high school buddies. She went to a concert, got in early, went to bed. She didn't know where she was, that old glazed look in her eyes, after her fall. She slept the next day. She wasn't a drinker, especially after head trauma. She went thru 3 days of torture! I didn't want to put her on that plane, but I did, she promised she'd see both dr's ASAP. I put her on her flight at 6:30pm on Monday, It was the last time I saw her alive. I talked to her on Tuesday, she wasn't right. Then she contacted me after she talked to a couple of her friends. She went to bed that Tuesday night and never woke up. I knew she had 2 more days before she had to return to work, but Mothers know! I had the worst feeling. That Tuesday was the last time I talked and text conversations with her. Thank goodness she was a reliable worker. I'd been trying for 2 days to get in touch with her. I started calling her work, was disconnected. I'd been up for 50+ hours, no sleep. Her Dad gave me a nerve pill. I'll never forget that Friday morning at 6:30am when her dad opened our bedroom door before he could get the police are downstairs, I jumped out of bed screaming bloody murder, grabbing a portrait of her, I knew it. Only The LORD knows what caused her passing, a tale of 2 states, that I feel didn't do their jobs, I'll never have closer. If I could die from a broken heart, I'd already be with her. I've learned to forgive everyone, including myself. The LORD giveth and He taketh away! I haven't had any fun or laughter in my life since the last time I saw her. It's like my spirit is gone. I know her Dad/ my hubby hurts also, but I've turned a 180 in my life. I'm saved, by The Grace of our LORD. That's what keeps me going. I can't get over this, no grandchildren, our only baby! You always think, "This wouldn't ever happen to is"....... Oh yes it can! We had everything in the world going for us. Within a few short months we've lost first of all, the most important person in our lives, then it kept on going downhill. But after our loss, there's nothing that could hurt me! I know we'll all be together one day, but it still hurts! There's nothing anyone can do for us, that is earthly. I've begged hubby to take me in for a lobotomy! Those thoughts aren't as frequent, be they roll in what's left in my mind. Thanks for listening! It's good to have a place to vent.