the loss in my heart over my wifes passing is hurting me so bad , i feel i'm failing my children
(Pinellas Park, Fl)
in 2007 my wife passed away from lung cancer, she was truly my best friend, we had two beautiful children together, it is now 2013 and i cannot seam to recover, and feel i have givin up , knowing that i'm failing my children has only made it harder, i'm so depressed and lonely, i cry at everything , but still cannot seam to help myself , why does my love have to hurt so bad. i am a rational man , but cannot find the right answer. last year i almost lost my son to a drug overdose .. i thought i could not sink any lower ... i have lost everything material .. and live soully to help take care of him , as well as my ageing mother ... i try to help everyone i can regardless of my conditions, but nothing seams to make me feel better ,,, if love is such a wonderful thing , then why does my heart ache so much. i sometimes wish i could be cold with a stone heart, but i don't have it in me ... i wish someone would help me believe it will all be ok , and help the healing begin. Please ... what do i do.
i am a firm beleiver in jesus , and that he died on the cross for my sins. i just wish i could complete the task that i believe is meant for me. it's just this ten foot hurdle in front of me i cannot make it over.
thanks for listening, and god bless.