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The Loss of My Beautiful Husband

by Sandra Meadows
(Hickory, NC)

Mark was my husband who I loved dearly. I met him in 1995. He was going through some difficulty in his personal life. He asked me out and I fell in love. We finally married in January of '04. I loved him with every fiber of my being.

He had a heart condition that we were unaware of which made him feel bad and ill. We separated in august '08. I loved him so much, I just wanted him to come home.

But he didn't make it home. He started working 12 hour shifts and drinking. He was found dead on Dec 19 with an apparent heart attack, due to high blood pressure. He had been dead at least a couple of days before he was found.

I feel devastated. I feel like I've been placed on a planet all alone. I have no job or means of supporting myself. We had bought a house together. Every day I feel afraid and all alone. This is the darkest place I've ever been in my life.

Sandra

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The Loss of My Beautiful Husband

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Grieving no more
by: Been there

Sandra, you have my total and utmost sympathy...

I can't imagine the pain you must have felt to know that your beloved husband lay dead for two days and no one cared enough to check on him...to comfort him or perhaps call for help... you must be devastated... his family must be too. I am certain that God is taking care of him in Heaven and that he is at peace.

I am also certain that God in His mercy will take care of you and those you love... there is a justice for all who walk on this Earth. I will pray for you.

All The Best
by: sandra meadows

Good luck to you Sonja. You sound like a sweet person.
Been there
by: Grieving no more

You have my utmost and total sympathy.
Don't be vindictive
by: Sandra Meadows

This is a place for people who are grieving to express their feelings and relate to other people. This site should not be used to try and hurt other people or throw accusations. If you're gonna use the site, go ahead and be big enough to sign your name. God Bless all.
Totally agree
by: Just Me

I'm sorry this terrible character came into your life after you're loss. Sounds like he really took advantage of you and treated you worse than a dog. Yes, never hook up with men who live with their elderly parents, don't make tons of money, and are accused of being criminals.

Turn back time
by: Anonymous

I wish I could turn back time to my husband and the time we had together. We were good... then we separated and this other man stole my heart and he seemed so good so unlike the rest... so sweet...called me every night... said nice things to me.

I began to talk to him every night, and then we started visiting. It made me forget my husband. He made me think that I was in love with him. He was kind of famous and had all kinds of things going on, it made me feel important to know him.

Then after a while, I realized it was all about him and he did not care for me at all, he used me when I was sad and vulnerable. I wish I had never met him, he tore out my heart. He was not what he seemed to be and it hurt bad. I am afraid I will never love again ...he stole my faith in men. He took advantage of me as I was grieving.

DO NOT get hooked up with a man who is living with his parents, can't get a decent job or is in trouble with the law. They are just no good and will drag you down with them. Stick with a good man who will make you feel better. Someone who is your equal.
I have walked in your shoes
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss... you sound like a good person... remember all of the good times you had. Don't allow anyone to take that from you.

At one time I was like you and very vulnerable when I was so sad. Be careful of people who will come in and take advantage of you when you are sad and vulnerable. Trust those who you know well and who have a good reputation.

Men take advantage of widows and those who are hurt. Try to find a good man like your husband and not someone who will wow you over for their own good and ego. If it sounds too good to be true, it probably is. Be well and heal. Give yourself at least a year to heal.
Looks Like We Are In The Same Boat
by: Sonja-Sioux City, Iowa

It sounds like you are in the same position that I am in. My husband had a heart condition. And I, like you, have no job. Try to get some type of employment and try to be strong!

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