The loss of my Guiding Light
by Ester Hernandez
I lost my husband, Johnny, of 38 years to diabetes complications. I think about him every single day, and every minute of every day. I miss him so much, my male friends sometimes I mistakenly call them by my husbands' name, one close friend in particular even sounds like my husband over the phone, to me. It's been almost four months, but my heart is refusing to accept my loss. He was my high school sweetheart and he will forever live in me. He was my rock and my guiding light which turned off forever. I pray to God everyday to give me the strength to go on. I have lots of family and friends and everyone tells me that they understand my loss, my grief but sometimes, I don't think anyone really understands, every loss is different and everyone learns to handle it in different ways. Just remember, God never gives you more then what you can handle, I really believe this. Someday, if I meet someone special and fall in love, I want him to be just like my lost love, I pray to God if it's in any way possible.