The Loss of my Husband (May 22, 2008)

by Lisa

I lost my husband 4 years ago this month (May). One week before our youngest High School graduation and one Month before our daughter was getting Married..With everything going on at one time I didn't have time to grieve...Getting through Graduation and the hardest watching my son walk my daughter down on her wedding day in the place of his dad... days...He was my High school sweetheart and we married a year after I Graduated High school..Had two children age 22 and 26...Still after 4 years it feels like yesterday...and still have bad days...and today is one of them...Very hard trying to move on, never get out to meet anyone..Our friends are married and I don't think they know how to act around me so they just avoid me all together..
Feel very alone all the time and would like to just have someone to tell them about my day...or how I am feeling..been on 3 dates in four years..and the last one was a year ago...I feel like I sit home and just think about all the things i went through these past 4 years and start feeling sorry for myself...and dating sure is not like it use to be...It is so funny.. My husband and I always joked how we would come back and haunt each other if we dated I really wounder.. I miss him so much more and more as the years go by..You don't realize all the little things you miss...wake up calls in the mornings the family dinners at night or just talking about your day...but they are the things that everyone should take joy in...because when you don't have anyone to share that with it's the hardest..

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May 10, 2012
So sorry
by: Anonymous

Hi Lisa, my names Kim and I'm from California. I'm sorry to hear you are still struggling so much. When I read this I couldn't believe how similar our stories are. My husband passed away last July16, 2011 if a massive heart attack. I had been with him since I was 18 and we were one month shy of celebrating our 18th wedding anniversary when he passed. Like you I had a daughter that we were planning a wedding for and I ended up walking her down the aisle and my son will be graduating high school in June. This has been the longest journey of my life so far and I can only imagine how hard it has been for you at four years now. I imagine I will still be struggling at that point too. Me and my husband were truly best friends and we loved each other so much. It's weird to hear what you said about haunting each other because we used to say the same thing! I swear he is around sometimes too. I hope things will get easier for you in time but I know how hard it is to let go and say goodbye. If you ever need to talk you can email me as I could use it too sometimes. My email is I wonder though how are your kids doing now about their father? May God bless you and help heal your broken heart. Take care,Kim.

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