The Loss of my Husband (May 22, 2008)
I lost my husband 4 years ago this month (May). One week before our youngest High School graduation and one Month before our daughter was getting Married..With everything going on at one time I didn't have time to grieve...Getting through Graduation and the hardest watching my son walk my daughter down on her wedding day in the place of his dad... days...He was my High school sweetheart and we married a year after I Graduated High school..Had two children age 22 and 26...Still after 4 years it feels like yesterday...and still have bad days...and today is one of them...Very hard trying to move on, never get out to meet anyone..Our friends are married and I don't think they know how to act around me so they just avoid me all together..
Feel very alone all the time and would like to just have someone to tell them about my day...or how I am feeling..been on 3 dates in four years..and the last one was a year ago...I feel like I sit home and just think about all the things i went through these past 4 years and start feeling sorry for myself...and dating sure is not like it use to be...It is so funny.. My husband and I always joked how we would come back and haunt each other if we dated again...now I really wounder.. I miss him so much more and more as the years go by..You don't realize all the little things you miss...wake up calls in the mornings the family dinners at night or just talking about your day...but they are the things that everyone should take joy in...because when you don't have anyone to share that with it's the hardest..