The Loss of My Marriage

by Chuck
(Lincoln Ne and Killeen Tx)

I am grieving the loss of my kids and my marriage of 7 years. Yes, it wasn’t very long, but her and her 2 year old daughter were my life from the moment I met them. I had to go over seas just a month after we got married and when I got back things never returned to normal. We had a son together 2 years later and things just got worse every year. I tried every day to make her happy but it soon began to be apparent that I was nowhere on her priority list. 2 months ago I had to take a job out of state (she talked me into it) to support my family and then after being here for 3 weeks I found out the kids were getting sent to grandmas or a babysitters every other weekend and she was going out with friends and not telling me. All of our calls turned into fights. Then in one of those fights I finally got her to say she was only married to me now to get all of the debt paid so she could divorce me with no debt , I told her no. I may have forced the end but it has been on its way for years. It doesn’t make it any easier. Even through all of the bad years I would have done anything for her and sadly still would. Now I’m 750 miles away from my kids, family and friends, all alone. Working 60+ hours a week paying for a house I don’t think I ever could live in again. And she is still living in that house and going out every other weekend, 1 week after I told her it was over she went out with a friend and took a bunch of pictures of her at the bar wearing a big black flower ring on her ring finger then posted them on facebook. I thought I was never going to stop crying. I think she is already seeing someone else and its only been 3 weeks since I said it was over.