The Love Of My Life (My Love Drug)

by LuCretia Williams- Hunter
(San Antonio, TX)

June 8, 2012, I lost the love of my life (my love drug).

My husband passed away from a massive heartache. I love and miss him so much. I was his honey divine and he was my love drug.
My husband had just kissed my goodbye and he walked across the street from my job and collasped.
I saw him laying on the curb from my office window and I ran down to him, he was face down on the pavement, with his head to 1side, he was still breathing at that point. By the time the EMT's had arrived my husband was not breathing and I knew that!They were able to revive him long enough to get him to the hospital,were my husband coded 10more times before they were able to get a somewhat stable heartbeat. The Dr. told me the only reason why they tried so hard to save him was because of his age, My husband Terrell Hunter Sr. was only 44yrs old.
I stayed by my husband side day and night praying for a miracle from God. It was June 7th, when the team of surgeon's sat down with me, the children and our pastor. The Dr's said that Terrell had tremedous brain damage from the loss of oxygen to the brain, and also his kidney's had totally failed. The doctors told me that even if his kidney's had not shut down, he would still live in a vegetation state the rest of his life, so I had to make the decision to take him off of the ventilator or to keep him on, either way it went my husband was going to pass away due to his body filling up with toxiants.
Well I was just terrified that I would be making a decision that, I felt like only God should be making, but I knew that my husband was suffering.I still did not want to make the decision. I went to the cafateria and I was on the elevator going back to my husband's room and my husband spoke to me and said
"Honey you have got to let me go, I would not do you like this". Oh I just cried! I then went and told my family what my Relly said, and then I spoke to the doctors and to them that I had made the decision to allow my husband to pass away peacefully.
Well I would always tell him while I was at the hospital where I was going, beacause I just knew he heard me, On the morning of my husbands passing he had been breathing so well without the ventilator, that the doctor told that I could go home and get a shower and come back, (the doctors were not expecting him to live 7 hours without the ventilator). I leaned over to my husband and said "Baby I will be back, i'm just going home to shower and change, I love U ! I did not make it out of the parking lot and the nurses called me and told me that my husband had passed. He still had me in mind when he passed, because he knew that me seeing him actually take his last breathe would have been so much more devasting to me, so he passed away like the PERFECT GENTLEMAN THAT HE WAS!

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Jul 09, 2012
by: Anonymous

makes me cry... what a perfect gentleman

Jul 07, 2012
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry my husband on June 24th passed Away from sudden cardiac arrest he was 49 I know the pain u r going through every day is a. Battle . My husband passed away suddenly and I know that god took him because he would not have wanted to be a vegetable. He was and active coach in out community I pray that I find peace in this time I am still struggling so much with his loss and don't understand why he was taken I am so sad but we have to live one for our kids and our families I don't know how I pray that god gives me the courage every day maybe that will help god bless u

Jul 07, 2012
The Love of my life (My Love Drug)
by: Doreen England

Lucretia, I am sorry for the loss of your husband at such a young age of 44yrs.
I cried when I read your post. I could feel what you were going through. The Panic of seeing your husband lying there. The Fear of losing him. The heartache of the fragile situation. Praying for a miracle.
I also like you prayed for a miracle. I was so sure that the God I knew all my life would give me that miracle. So when my husband Steve died I was devastated. It felt like a sudden death. Steve had lung cancer caused by Asbestos. so his cancer was inoperable, incurable, aggressive. But the God I knew could heal even this. He did it for others. I was Steve's caregiver for 3yrs.39days. But in all this time Steve had no quaility of life. He was lying down the whole time. Steve's life stopped the day he was diagnosed on 28th March 2009. Up till then Steve was in so much discomfort and pain towards the end that he wanted to die earlier than the 3yrs.39days. OH! how I wanted him to live. OH! how I was desperated for this miracle. It didn't happen. Steve died 8 weeks ago today. I am still heartbroken. We will grieve our loss for a long long time. WE will never forget who we loved. WE will never love another like our Husband. No one could ever take their place. You are young. You may find love again. don't feel guilty. Go on and live. Best wishes

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