The Love of My Life
Just one month ago, I lost the love of my life from a sudden illness. We were married 30 years in October. We met when I was just 15 years old and married 6 years later.
I wake up every morning looking for him. When I come home from work I expect him to be there. I don't know how I can go on without him. I miss him so much. He was my soul mate. We had such a good life together and thought we would grow old together. We had so many plans for the future.
I feel like my heart has been torn out of my chest. I feel numb. I'm just going through the motions of getting up in the morning and going to work. The nights and weekends are the worse. I sleep on the couch with the TV and lights on. I started going this week to a grief counselor. It helped for the moment just to talk to someone besides family.
This is so hard. Will I ever feel better?