the man who has my heart.
by Bunny O.
I lost my live in boyfriend of 2 years, 4 days ago suddenly. we were having problems but were working through them like we always have before. i went to a friends for the night and he was at home. i came home the next day i found him, he looked like he was sleeping but he never laid that way so i went over to give him a kiss and he wasn't breathing. i tried to do cpr but it was to late. i feel like this isn't real like i'm going to wake up and he will be here with me and our kitties in our small apartment laying there talking for hours. i don't think it will hit me till Sunday when i have to clean out our apartment and move out. without him i was nothing but half of myself ,with him i was whole. the one thing i have left is our pets but i have no where to go that will let me keep them. they miss their daddy they know somethings wrong :'( i'm scared that this hasn't hit me yet i'm scared i wont be happy ever again. i'm scared of when i'm not thinking and i try to call him about something funny i seen or did and he wont be there to answer...he was the greatest man ever to have been in my life. i just need to know it will all be ok but it wont be ok never will be. thank you for listening i'm sorry its so long and bad grammar.