The one that got away

by Haziqah

About a year & a half ago, I lost the woman that I grow up with and spent time with every weekend for 15 years. She was the best grandmother I could ever asked for. She taught me how important family is. I still haven't gotten over her yet. I still haven't found closure. I can't. I can't stop thinking of the day I get the news that she was gone. My whole family lives at a different house then my grandparents, and that morning we all woke up to send her to the hospital cause she was feeling unwell the day before. My family got up ard 8 and we called the cab, which took us only 5 mins? The journey to my grandparents house took about 30 mins, and we were almost there when my uncle called my mum to tell us that my grandmother's gone. She's gone. We were just 10 mins away. And then I couldn't believe it. I didn't cry, cause I thought it was just a prank, but then I saw my mum cried next to me, I was stunned, I didn't know what to do. When we finally reached to her place, the ambulance was there and the medics were gesturing us in, and then I saw her, she was lying peacefully in her bed, the bed that I last saw her laugh not more than 12 hours ago. It broke my heart cause I know things will be different now, and then I saw everybody else crying, it was the first time I saw tears in everyone's eyes. My heart just crumbled. I can't describe the feeling. I was angry and sad and confused. I felt that it was unfair that my grandmother is gone and other people's grandmother was still alive. I was angry at GOD for taking her away. And when I saw my granddad cries, it became worse. Why? Why is she gone? :"""(

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Dec 03, 2012
the one that got away
by: Doreen U.K.

Haziqua I am sorry for your loss of your grandmother. Death is one of the experiences of life that causes us such unbearable pain. We wonder how we can recover from such raw sorrow and grief.
God has a pattern for each or our lives and we don't know when our lives will also be taken. WE have to cry ang grieve our loss till Healing takes place in us.
All we can do is gather those precious memories and live how we were taught.

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