The Only Love I Will Ever Have
Well it has been a little over 5 months since my wife passed away. A lot of ups and downs but just trying to make or force a new normal. I miss her so much and find myself calling her phone more and more just so I can hear her voice. I don't know if it is just time but I am having a hard time remembering how great her laugh was.
My son and I go up to visit weekly but it is so cold out and snowing that we don't spend much time with her. I guess I am feeling guilty because of that. I know it has been awhile since I wrote to anyone but I read the posts daily.
This site and hearing all of the other stories just helps me understand how I am doing. Someone posted a couple weeks ago about when to take off the wedding rings. I had a friend ask me last week "you know if you take off your wedding ring you will meet someone new"; I informed him that I buried my wife with her ring on her finger and mine will stay on mine.
I know they say death ends the marriage but I think that is only if we let it. Time may change the way I look at it but for now I prefer to keep everything just like it was. I hope everyone is still moving forward on this crazy ride we are on.