The only reason I'm here

by Kylee tap.

I lost my poppy in 2009. It had been a wonderful day at school and I barly had time to think about my poppy in the hospital. When I got home I came inside and started laughing along with my nieces and nephews who were living with us at the time. My parents took me outside at first I was confused why but then it dawned on me. It was almost like a movie I couldn't believe it and when the tears started I couldn't stop them. A few days before that I had to write a report about who my favorite person was and say why. As the preacher from my church read at his funereal i began to cry even harder then I already was as he read the part about him saving my life when I was three years old. I had died and he brought me back to life, I literally died for a few seconds. Now every time something good happens to me later that night I begin to wonder what he would have said to me. It's so hard to believe that all that happened truly happened it seems like a dream that ended long ago it doesn't seem real. I can hardly remember his voice anymore. I am depressed now and the only reason I'm not suicidal is because why should I give up the life I have because of him and god. I love you grandpa!!! See you in heaven.

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Aug 19, 2012
The only reason I'm here
by: Dee U.K.

Kylie you are grieving. You will be up and down for a very long time. It is O.K. to have fun. The reason you are here is because you have been given life. It was saved by your grandfather when you stopped breathing. You were meant to live. Your grandpa did what anyone would have done. to give you a chance to come back. You can keep a journal and write in this all the feelings you had for your grandpa and express your thanks to him for saving your life. You can go on and be FREE to live and enjoy the life you have been given. Grief will only last as long as it needs to. This is different for everyone. Not everyone in grief feels suicidal. don't even give it a thought. Lose any guilt you have because your granpa saved you and now he has gone. Everything happens for a reason. You will recover in time.

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