The Pink Rock
Our daughter began using LSD/alcohol/pot at 12 yrs of age. At 14 she was date raped. We did everything we could, but it never was enough. By the time she was 18 she was pregnant and married to the father of her first child. He was an addict as well.
Then they had a second child. Throughout their marriage, they lived with us (mom and dad). We did everything we could. And went bankrupt doing it. Not just emotionally bankrupt, but financially as well.
Now our 33-year-old daughter is clean and sober for 10 months and has decided we can't contact her. She has moved and we don't know where she is, and she has the two grandkids we raised.
There were days when she was still using drugs that she would be drooling, staggering or even possibly unable to walk. We would take care of the kids totally. CPS finally got involved and she got better but now everything is our fault.
I know that they are alive and well and that perhaps means I shouldn't be using this website, but the grief inside of me is like a boulder. I can't make it through most days. I feel like a wimp. I should be glad she's doing better. All I need is to be able to see them occasionally and call them occasionally and know that they love us.
She is telling people terrible, terrible things about us that are not true or are truth twisted into lies and ugliness.