the Rambling Widow
This is to write how I feel, you know if I knew that would be ok. I've written about the experience of the loss of my husband already. Only a short time has passed and I have had to retire move accross the country to my son's home and
I wish I knew what to put here to finish this sentence. I guess for me the anger has set in a little bit. Only problem is I am not angry at God, not angry at my husband just angry... Does anyone know what you do with that? I am trying to keep this grief train on the right track. It is awful, the worst thing I have ever faced in my life. I hate it. Maybe I am just angry at grief. Thats a thought.
But I know that grief if supposed to be my friend, so maybe I am feeling guilty for being angry with a friend. I had an anxiety attack the other day first one in my whole life. I know I'm not crazey I just sound crazey. I am writing because I thought maybe it would help me see something I am missing. I just want my husband back... Well I know that isn't going to happen. Thank you for the space to vent I think it helped.