The Wolf is at my Heart ~
by Patricia
The Little Frog that Could
But, there is a light shining just off in the distance. I catch a ray glowing every now and then, a light just over the horizon shining into my heart at times. I know Billy's there, I can feel it but I can't touch it. A shadow on a the wall, a glimpse just off in the distance, my heart feels it.... Then I awake and he's not there, I'm alone once more and the tears come again. I don't understand the concept of only 1. Before time and in the beginning, Noah's Ark it was 2 by 2... Problem is now it's only 1. My pair, my other half, my soul mate is gone and I'm forever searching. Life in reality or in the Bible always remains a mystery where the heart is concern. A instruction book would really benefit everybody. I was told the heart feels nothing and it's just the mind. Someone explain to me when I can't breath and my heart is running a 100 miles an hour and I can't stand the heartache any more how my mind has anything to do with it.???? Yes, I'm an emotional person and I lead with my heart because If I was thinking with my brain I wouldn't say the stupid things I say. So my heart is breaking, my best friend, my soul mate, the one person that is the very soul of my life is gone and I'm destroyed, devastated, can you truly tell me it's my brain and if so explain it because my heart feels like it going to jump out of my chest. I'm in left field and then in right. Who's on first? What's on second.... round and round we go again. Sometime's I just want to scream ENOUGH!!!!!!! Hello, reality check, good luck with that one So goldilocks ~ watch out, the wolf is at the door and his name is: Heartbreak, sorrow, despair and devastation to your soul ~ beware..... Have I really lost touch with Reality? I'm sure its a question that will forever be unanswered. All I know is Billy's not here, my soul is lost and I wish his arms were around me to hold and just feel that warmth, comfort and love he always had for me. Again, I'm crying for what is lost and I can not longer have. God help us all ~ and me.... always 1 step, 1 breath at a time ~ 1 year and insanity following fast behind. . .
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