I try not to cry, because i know he's in a better place. After losing both his parents and incurring a brain tumor, how could it have been better?
I can explain that to myself but it doesn't make it hurt less. I loved him, my fiance, my life for a very long time. It was perfect, evidently too perfect.
It's been 3 years and while i'm happy to live my life, i do feel empty, half a soul. As well as being more understanding now, i don't want to let go. I probably could, but i don't want to move further away from the little memory i have left of him.
He was 23, he had a big bright smile despite having survived a world of pain, he was caring and lovable, he was mine.

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Jul 18, 2014
The Cryer
by: Doreen UK

I am so sorry for your loss of your fiancé. He was so young and had so much pain in his life from his cancer. I had to watch my husband die a slow death from this ugly disease that tears families apart. But we can't let cancer destroy us like it destroys the body. We have to eventually find a way to go on in life. You have every right to not want to change a thing in your world and to honour the memory of your fiancé. Do just that. There are no rules that say you should move away and forward with your life. You will move forward in time. But grief has its process and we heal in time and that could be years. You will know in your heart when you are ready for change, but for now you have to honour the way you feel and grieve all you need to for the man you loved and suffered so much pain in his short life. He is at peace now and can't be hurt anymore by life. I hope you will be comforted and find Peace in your grief.

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